It’s been exactly four years since Jessica Simpson saw herself for what she had become and knew something had to change.
“This person in the early morning of Nov 1, 2017 is an unrecognizable version of myself,” Simpson, 41, wrote in a throwback post on Instagram, offering a vulnerable look inside the inspiration for her four-year journey toward sobriety.
“I had so much self discovery to unlock and explore. I knew in this very moment I would allow myself to take back my light, show victory over my internal battle of self respect, and brave this world with piercing clarity,” the singer, actress, entrepreneur and mom wrote.
Alcohol, she wrote, kept her “mind and heart circling in the same direction and quite honestly I was exhausted.”
Working on herself and facing the pain she has endured has allowed her to “break cycles” and look back without regret or remorse, Simpson wrote.
“The drinking wasn’t the issue. I was. I didn’t love myself. I didn’t respect my own power. Today I do. I have made nice with the fears and I have accepted the parts of my life that are just sad,” she added.
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Meanwhile, Simpson last year inked a lucrative multimedia deal with Amazon Studios, noting in her post that she has arrived at a place where she is “wildly honest and comfortably open,” CNN reported.
The Amazon deal came on the heels of the release of Simpson’s memoir, “Open Book,” which detailed how she was too “zoned out” the Halloween night before the wake-up call photo was taken to help her children get ready for trick or treating, Extra reported.
“I am ashamed to say that I don’t know who got them into their costumes that night,” she wrote in the book, noting that she was too ashamed to face them the next morning and hid until they left the house.
“I slept in, afraid to see them, afraid I had failed them. I hid until they left, then drank,” she wrote.
Despite the anguish that forced Simpson to seek help for her addictions, she closed her Monday’s celebratory Instagram post on a hopeful, upbeat note.
“I own my personal power with soulful courage … I am free,” she wrote.
FRANKLIN, TENNESSEE – FEBRUARY 14: Jessica Simpson celebrates #1 New York Times best-selling memoir, "Open Book" at Dillard’s CoolSprings on February 14, 2020 in Franklin, Tennessee. (Photo by John Shearer/Getty Images for Jessica Simpson Collection)
Jessica Simpson, Nick Lachey during Jessica Simpson Celebrates the Launch of "Dessert Treats" at Industria NYC in New York, New York, United States. (Photo by M. Von Holden/FilmMagic)
Singer and actress Jessica Simpson attends the 84th Annual Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade on November 25, 2010 in New York City. (Photo by George Napolitano/FilmMagic)
UNSPECIFIED – CIRCA 2000: Photo of Jessica Simpson Photo by Al Pereira/Michael Ochs Archives/Getty Images
NEW YORK CITY, NY – MAY 7: Jessica Simpson attends The COSTUME INSTITUTE Gala in honor of "POIRET: KING OF FASHION" at The Metropolitan Museum of Art on May 7, 2007 in New York City. (Photo by CHANCE YEH/Patrick McMullan via Getty Images)
NEW YORK, NY – FEBRUARY 05: Eric Johnson, Birdie Mae Johnson, Ace Knute Johnson, Jessica Simpson, and Maxwell Drew Johnson are seen on February 05, 2020 in New York City. (Photo by Jose Perez/Bauer-Griffin/GC Images)
NEW YORK, NY – FEBRUARY 04: Jessica Simpson leaves BuzzFeed on February 4, 2020 in New York City. (Photo by Raymond Hall/GC Images)
NEW YORK, NY – JULY 31: Jessica Simpson is seen on July 31, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by HTYNY/Star Max/GC Images)
NEW YORK, NY – SEPTEMBER 09: Actress Jessica Simpson is seen in soho on September 9, 2015 in New York City. (Photo by Raymond Hall/GC Images)
Jessica Simpson performs These Boots Are Made For Walkin’ from The Dukes of Hazzard (Photo by Jeff Kravitz/FilmMagic, Inc)
382601 17: (ITALY OUT) Jessica Simpson attends the American Foundation for AIDS Research”s "Seasons of Hope" event at Roseland Ballroom November 29, 2000 in New York City. (Photo by Arnaldo Magnani/Liaison)
NEW YORK, NY – OCTOBER 11: Jessica Simpson on October 11, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by Gotham/GC Images)
NEW YORK, NY – SEPTEMBER 07: Jessica Simpson is seen on September 7, 2015 in New York City. (Photo by XPX/Star Max/GC Images)
NEW YORK, NY – OCTOBER 12: Actress/Singer Jessica Simpson is seen walking in soho on October 12, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by Raymond Hall/GC Images)
Jessica Simpson during 2005 ESPY Awards – Arrivals at Kodak Theatre in Hollywood, California, United States. (Photo by Jon Kopaloff/FilmMagic)
Jessica Simpson during Jessica Simpson Sighting in SoHo – October 5, 2006 in New York City, California, United States. (Photo by Marcel Thomas/FilmMagic)
UNSPECIFIED – circa 1970: Photo of Jessica SIMPSON (Photo by Michel Linssen/Redferns)
LOS ANGELES, CA – SEPTEMBER 21: Jessica Simpson and Eric Johnson seen on September 21, 2018 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by SMXRF/Star Max/GC Images)
FRANKLIN, TENNESSEE – FEBRUARY 14: Jessica Simpson celebrates #1 New York Times best-selling memoir, "Open Book" at Dillard’s CoolSprings on February 14, 2020 in Franklin, Tennessee. (Photo by John Shearer/Getty Images for Jessica Simpson Collection)
Jessica Simpson performs for the first time in New York’s Central park during Allure magazine’s Play Safe concert, benefiting the skin cancer foundation n May 22, 2004. The singer, actress, entrepreneur and mother shared on Instagram on Monday, Nov. 1, 2021, that she has been sober for four years after struggling with alcohol and pills. (Photo by Bill Tompkins/Getty Images)
Jessica Simpson during Jessica Simpson Outside MTV Studios – November 30, 2004 at MTV Studios in New York City, New York, United States. (Photo by James Devaney/WireImage)
Jessica Simpson during Jessica Simpson and Dane Cook Outside MTV’s TRL Studios – October 4, 2006 at MTV Studios – Times Square in New York City, New York, United States. (Photo by James Devaney/WireImage)
THE KELLY CLARKSON SHOW — Episode 3117 — Pictured: (l-r) Jessica Simpson, Kelly Clarkson — (Photo by: Adam Christopher/NBCUniversal/NBCU Photo Bank via Getty Images)
NEW YORK, NEW YORK – FEBRUARY 04: (EXCLUSIVE COVERAGE) Singer Jessica Simpson visits BuzzFeed’s "AM To DM" on February 04, 2020 in New York City. (Photo by Jim Spellman/Getty Images)
NEW YORK, NY – SEPTEMBER 19: Singer/Actress Jessica Simpson is seen walking in soho on September 19, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by Raymond Hall/GC Images)
NEW YORK, NEW YORK – FEBRUARY 05: Actress, singer Jessica Simpson arrives to ABC’s "The View" on February 05, 2020 in New York City. (Photo by Gilbert Carrasquillo/GC Images)
Jessica Simpson during Jessica Simpson and Dane Cook Outside MTV’s TRL Studios – October 4, 2006 at MTV Studios – Times Square in New York City, New York, United States. (Photo by James Devaney/WireImage)
